We promised forever. Occasionally, the depth to which he takes that is a little more clear than others, and I get a little wave from the other side.
I'm at the doctor's office, waiting. I hate doctors. I'm there because I think I noticed something (turned out to be nothing). I'm talking to him to calm down and he's responding - as he always does, in my head.
I'm freshly showered, brushed teeth, wearing clean clothes. There are no cigarettes in my purse. Last smoke I had was last night; it was my 2nd cigarette of the week. (He had been a pack-a-day smoker, I started up occasionally - as in, a pack will last me a month - when I decided to finish his last pack.)
And the doctor questioned me on tobacco use because he smelled it when he walked in the door.
And accepted the "I was just talking to him before you walked in and he was a smoker" reason.
