Yesterday got rough. This morning was me rolling over to see Leo curled up on the pillow next to me.  I did not feel like moving.  A few hours later I called Mom and said, “This is it, this the year I’m not going to be there”.  Family Christmas in Iowa was today.  Ok.

Me and Leo dragged a pillow to the couch and I climbed under the quilts.  We dozed, him more than me.  A few hours later I went to check on the neighbor’s car and he was still there when I got back.

I successfully showered, put on a different pair of pj pants, and switched couches.  Leo’s right here with me.

Some days I think it’s healthiest to simply live like Leo.  As I’ve bawled then dozed off and on all day, today’s that day.

And the family?  I think they’ve been expecting it.