Living Widowed: November 2012

Sunday, November 4, 2012

#1

Sometimes - most of the time - I just miss being #1 to someone. Sure I have parents, siblings and friends. And yes, my parents, siblings and friends have been outstanding. But I'll never be #1 to them like I was to him. It's just the nature of the relationship. Your life partner is always the person who is uppermost in your mind, and I miss knowing that I hold that place in someone else's life. (He's still mine.)

FAQ's

It was the 4th anniversary of his death when I started feeling like I might have my own life again. This blog was started 2 years after his death, as a way for me to get my feelings and thoughts out.

We were together for almost 2 years when he died in a car accident on the way to work.

We had no kids (neither of us particularly wanted them).

He was 27, I was 30.

Yes, we were living as a married couple, but we never got around to making it "official." We thought we had time. We thought it didn't matter, because we knew what we shared.

Yes, we were planning on spending the rest of our lives with each other. (He kept his promise.)

Yes, I feel that "widow" is the term that best fits my relationship status, since my life partner - the love of my life - is deceased.