How can you wish that I find someone to love again? I didn't lose the love. I still love him - more than ever, actually - and believe me when I say he still loves me. How can you replace something you didn't lose?
What I did lose was someone to share my life with, grow old,
and hold my hand. These days, that’s
what I mourn. I mourn the life I thought
I was going to have, pity myself for being here without him, and alone. I don’t grieve for him – I’m a Christian, I
believe he’s in a much better place. I
believe he’s happy, at peace, at rest, finally.
I grieve for myself, being stuck here without him, having to endure the
rest of this world on my own.
Ah, glorious self-pity.
Hugs and much love!
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