ME

It's not about you, it's about me.

I recently took a month off alcohol and it really does give one lots of time to think.

I was advised to "sit with" certain things, to get to the bottom of why I was drinking, why I couldn't control it, and what was behind those emotions. 

Unshockingly, it quickly led back to my childhood.  But my new revelation is it's none your business, and frankly, that's all anyone needs to know.  So there.

But it did shock me and allow me to say "no I DON'T think that and I've done so much to overcome that and THIS is still a symptom of that?  Yeah, F no"

And halfway thru the month I realized no one will ever love me or support me how I want to be loved or supported.  Follow here:

People love and support me in their own way.  People can only act as they are able.  Not everyone is ABLE to do everything we want them to do.  They can only respond as they are able.  If we expect something they are unable to give, we will always be disappointed.

No one will ever care about my life as much as I do.  I'm the only one who has to live it.  I'm the only one here on the daily, the good and the bad.  OF COURSE I'm going to care more.

And it's ok.